Adonis Diaries

Civil wars must end with a victor

Posted on: September 28, 2008

Woo to the people who underwent a civil war and nobody believes that he emerged the victor!  In this state of affairs, males when forced to talk about the war invariably blame the other or other parties; they are never willing to divulge the atrocities they perpetrated and they act as if innocent from what happened; they offer plenty of excuses for fictitious pardons.  God should know that even a monster harbors a horrible conscious after 15 years of insanity and horrors; a bad conscious does not vanish without confessions and true admission of personal guilt and accepting the responsibilities.  Only women are ready to talk about the experienced feelings and events of the war but it is hard to locate these women. How can you believe that a state of normalcy can be won when only ambulatory wretched men are crowding the streets and selling little stuffs just to cover the stigma of mendicancy? In this state of affairs, the women after the war are nowhere to be found in the streets; they are secluded in their homes; how the tourism business can flourish when women and girls have deserted the open spaces?  During the civil war, mostly women roamed the open streets tending to the survival of the clans while men were hidden in bunkers and behind fortified sandbags, cagouls masking their faces, conscious of their cowardism and smallnest.  In this state of affairs the souls resume their rotting process and inability to see clear into the future; our sun and sea salt have managed to give a semblance of exterior cleanliness, of erradicating the stench and putrifaction that is plaguing every corner in Lebanon.  In this state of affairs another civil war is doomed to be re-activated because ignorance cannot grasp another concept but victory, even a fictitious victory.   There was one tiny period when the Maronite Christians thought that they have won the war when the hard-line conservative leader Basheer Gemayel was elected President of the Republic, under the Israeli bayonets.  Looking back, I would have accepted this ludicrous fact instead of a no victor outcome!

There were many circumstances when a few individuals longed for the resumption of the war without daring to confide their desires: many got lucky in sexual encounters in basement where the living were sheltered from rockets; they made love in total darkness and made sure not to give their real names or be seen in broad daylight.  Sun light was not to provide additional details and the consequent exacerbations of finding major physical flaws.  Darkness was the queen for releasing the bottled up emotions and tenderness and saving unattached comfortable relationships.  Only the sense of touch and fowl smell of the environment and mouth smell were the facts that could handicapped the close relationships but the general deficiency in running water, hot baths and health higyene were excellent excuses to forgiving the shortcomings.

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