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Whom are we amusing? (October 29, 2008)

I know! We are puppets.

Whom, I am trying to figure out,

Are we amusing?


Millions of small investors in stocks lost their life savings.

At least they played a game.

Over two millions of civilian Iraqis have perished

Since the Bush Administration invasion in 2003.

What role have the collateral dead played?

Over two millions of Iraqis babies died

From lack of medicines and powder milk

During the economical and oil embargo of Bush Senior.

What role do babies play?


I know!  We are all puppets.

Whom are we entertaining?

Why the ignoramus GW Bush had agreed to lead the World?

Because he is a fool, stupid. Good reason.

Dick Cheney survived ten years of congenital heart disease.

Why did he survive destiny?

Because he had to play to perfection the Devil incarnate of the decade.


I know!  But why millions in Bangladesh have to die, 

Every year, during the monsoon season?

Why millions in Africa have to die, every year, of famine and malnutrition? 

Why hundreds of Chinese have to die, every day, in mining operations?

Why the rich Chinese Administration has to forget its famished citizens in the provinces?


I know!  But why the untouchables, sickly, and handicapped

Have mostly to suffer?

The affluent, healthy and influential are not that happy;

But why do they have to make fun at the expense of the “others”?


I know! Everyone could be playing a part.

Whom, I need to know,

Are we diverting?


Fools, jesters, and tragic-comedians dust you are.

Dust blowing in the wind.


Why can we not enjoy and be happy,

Making fun at our own expense?

Let us doubly entertain

Whoever are watching us!

Wild Goose Chase into the Old World: Persia 4th century BC


Ever since I have read the life story of the so-called Alexander the Great I have been restless. I keep considering alternative circumstances of how this mad and impossible incursion into the Old Eastern World could have been stopped.

I felt that writing a historical fiction novel about this period would do me good. It should be historical because people are shying away from current news: They don’t listen to news, they don’t read newspapers, they have no ideas what is happening around them and yet, they feel superior to all politicians and far more capable.

It has to be a fiction because the so-called facts are bitter pills and not so reliable:

They are the facts of the victors and petty facts after all.

I needed to delve and know more about the ancient world.  I need to imagine that a few of its leaders and scholars could have foreseen how political systems and technologies would have developed.

How they would dare change the world according to their new visions. Whether they would have been better equipped, spiritually and morally to improve their world, people and environment, at their own snail pace

Alexander’s upbringing

Alexander was brainwashed since childhood.  He was made insidiously to believe by his mother Olympia that he was the descended of the God Hercules. His mother kept telling him that the Highest Priest of Egypt was convinced that he is the expected World King for the end of the Aries period (The Belier or two horned mammal).

Alexander was actually a bastard.

His father Phillip, King of Macedonia, strongly suspected that his wife Olympia has given birth to an illegitimate son. At the time, the kingdom of Persia extended from the borders of India to Turkey to Libya in Africa.  It included the current countries of Afghanistan, Iran, Turkey, Iraq, Syria, Lebanon, Palestine, Jordan, Egypt, Libya and the coast of North Africa.

Background on the motives of Alexander

Alexander’s goal was to conquer Egypt and receive from its High Priest the crown reserved for the expected son of God so that he can secure legitimacy.

As one of Alexander mentors explained it to him “If you want wealth you steal it by force and if you want legitimacy then you have to snatch it by the sword”.

As the story of history goes, while in Egypt, Alexander received a letter from the King of Persia. The King was proposing to Alexander to accept the coastal land of Turkey to settle their disputes.

It seems that the King of Persia was in a chatting mood and he added a threat that if his proposal is turned down then he will keep retreating before Alexander’s troops, to the confines of his vast Empire until Alexander gives up the chase. The letter warned Alexander that this task would be impossible to carry through.

The King of Persia had just handed Alexander a sweet excuse and a new purpose.

So much for making sense to a hot headed and crazy young adversary! Alexander barely visited any city twice and intended to advance further east to China.

What old “history books” told us

For thirteen years, Alexander barely backtracked in his wild push forward. His military travel took him beyond the Persian Empire to the Southern parts of Russia, Kashmir, Pakistan and parts of India.   As matter of fact, Alexander could not have advanced that far if not for the fresh recruits coming from Greece to replace the losses.

The new recruits adored him and wanted to have a share of the glory. Alexander crossed deserts in summers, the highest mountains in winters and most of his soldiers died of hunger, thirst and diseases rather than from wars.  Alexander died in Babylon at the age of 30 something and his fiefdoms were divided among his officers after many years of a long civil war.

Lesser known stories

The officers of Alexander, battle worn, sick with disease and confused as to the purpose of this incomprehensible campaign, finally expressed bluntly their unwillingness to go any further and confronted him.  Alexander had to stop his advance and convinced his officers to navigate the Indus River and then reach Egypt by sea.

To punish his officers for foiling his dream of reaching the confines of the ancient world, Alexander made his army to cross the southern desert of Persia for 60 days where thousands of soldiers died of thirst.

Kandahar: Medium-term plan 3

(fiction, continue 30)

At the city of Kandahar, in south central current Afghanistan, Artax appointed a women officer to be General in Chief of all the armed forces in southern Afghanistan. This tactic secured two major benefits;

first, the woman general would hold fast to the new system that secured and solidified women rights, and

second she would allow the force the necessary time to strengthen its grip on the region:  the enemy was assumed not to take that seriously a force headed by a woman and thus insure valuable time to taking hold on the mind of the population.

Slowly but surely, the vision and planning of Artax were materializing in flesh and bones around the perimeter of the Persian Empire.

As for the “pilgrimage journey” to China, Artax selected the famous chronicle Battoukha to discover the wonders of China and to dispatch him the diaries: if Artax could not experience in the flesh the discoveries then Artax would share the excitement by the mind.

Marco Polo and before him Ibn Battouta (at least 8 centuries later) relied heavily on the manuscript of Battoukha to plan for their famous journeys to the Rising Sun China.

On the Southern Army

The adventure of the Southern Army of Artax, led by the vizier Khorsheed, was fantastic.  This brave army made a series of successful landings in fishing villages and proceeded according to master plans.

Soldiers would enter a town, plaster the scrolls of the Constitution and Bill of Rights on the walls of shrines and local institutions, read them in front of the public; install one judge accepted by the inhabitants then horde the other judges and clerics to a remote training camp for indoctrination.

Educated and learned people in the community were encouraged to disseminate the new system.  Young boys and girls were sent to schools.  People bent on mischief and who took advantage of a confused central authority was apprehended to give evidence of who is the real authority in maintaining law and order.

Dangerous news arrived to Artax from his Southern Army which stopped his grandiose plans on their tracks: unless Artax assembles a strong naval force in the Persian Gulf, his Southern Army might not hold its terrain against the onslaught of the usurping Monarch.

This vast desert area along the coast requires constant supply of fresh water and food for his army that was dying of thirst and heat strokes. Artax had to advance along the Indus River which empties in the Indian Ocean.

He had to hire and stock enough ships to rescue the Southern Army or eventually to evacuate it honorably in an orderly fashion.

The lousy desert parts of his Kingdom were of no concerns to Artax anymore, though he had to support his army there in order to divert the forces of the usurping Monarch from the more critical parts of his secured bases in the Kingdom.

The rear bases of Artax stretched from the fertile lands of current Karachi in Pakistan to Goa in India.   Artax messengers were carrying orders and instructions to all armies and governors along secured routes.  In every region that the King authority was entrenched, municipal elections were held and the spirit of the Constitution and Bill of Rights were disseminated, gradually but surely.

Changes in societies need time, patience and genuine zeal in convictions to make any headway.

Artax primary duties to his people was to keep close contacts, involvement, and interactions with the institutions and taking close attention to the training camps programs for the reeducation of the newer generations as to the spirit of the articles in the Constitution and Bill of Rights.

The dissemination of information about the new cultures in remote lands was a most important ingredient in Artax educational system.  Artax motto was: ignorance and isolation from other civilizations is the drug of choice exploited by the religious extremists who abhor civil supervision of any governing body.

Balkh: Medium-term plan 1

(fiction, ch. 29)

The First Queen of the Son-God Incarnate Artax was from a district located in the north-eastern parts of the Empire, in Mazar Al Shareef and close to the current Central Asian States; she was not at all friendly with the usurping Monarch.

Artax made his move to establishing a presence in the city of Balkh, a center for learning and commerce in north Afghanistan and close to the Central Asian Estates. He dispatched his wife, clandestinely, to her home district along with countable numbers of security officers and a regiment of the army clothed as civilians in a routine caravan trip.

She was to re-affirm the loyalty of her people and exhort youth to travel east and join Artax army.  He ordered the Queen never to be guarded by more than 6 formal soldiers and 12 soldiers in civilian attires as front and rear guards during her displacement throughout the district because the smaller the number of personal guards the more confidence she would convey to her people.

The Monarch told the Queen: “Good impressions are worth an entire division of an army.”

Southern Desert: Medium-term plan 2

One of his liked viziers named Khorsheed and from the southern desert like parts of the Empire, expressed the desire to return home and investigate the possibility of securing a base there.

The vizier was dispatched to his district, accompanied with a security officer and another regiment.  The same strategy of taking firm hold of parts of the Kingdom in every direction ensured destroying the capacity of the usurping “Magnificent Khosro” to focus and concentrate his forces at one area.

In order to maintain presence in the desert region, frequent supplies were to be delivered from the sea.  Consequently, it was necessary to navigate the Indus River and secure a port and ships.

The town of Deb was then the ideal port.  Two old merchant ships were purchased and refurbished to play the dual task of supply and soldier carrier tanker: it was essential never to mix business with military exigencies.

The refurbished ships were not meant to belong within the business unit.  These small ships received the order to just reconnoiter the Persian sea shores for unusually military and trade activities for advanced intelligence; they also had the mission to listen to the complaints of the suffering villages and towns on the shore.

Two larger merchant ships were secured in the process of taking to the sea as back up resources and the landing of a whole regiment if needed.

Has your Ego changed in definition? (November 28, 2008)

Sciences have this tendency to fine tune definitions in order to account for variations perceived in social and individual diversities.

The field of psychology has offered at least four definitions for Ego.

  1. You have got the Narcissi Ego when the “I” is wished to be above the common of mortals, an inability to identify with the sufferings of others and which masks our vulnerabilities to death and apprehension of the others.
  2. You have the Hysteric Ego when the “I” depends on the perceptions of the others and the urge to be accepted as the center of the universe.
  3. You have the Egocentric Ego when the “I” would like to be without any reproach and flaw in the view of the moral standards with the consequence of ultimately hating every one who offer a criticism.
  4. You have the Non-Ego or the “Da” in Tibetan or “Atman” in Sanskrit when we should strive to feel like a drop of water in the ocean, an ego not associated to the ephemeris of society but related to nature and the universe (I don’t like it because it lacks the attributes of human beings).

If we consider any extreme emotions as transient insanity for an indeterminate duration (the length of the duration being a science in itself for determining mental dysfunction) then all of us “normal” people have a combination of the four kinds of ego, the proportionality of one kind of ego to the others reflecting the frequency of one ego with respect to the other four, within a day, a week, or a conceptual period of observation.

Maybe when we blame someone for failing to develop or mature in due time, we might unconsciously be blaming him for not transforming his type of “ego combination” into a qualitatively more appropriate combination acceptable by the “normal” society.

I have been observing my behavior for the last seven years, what we call an introspective analysis, by writing and reading a lot.

I think that my ego combinations types started Egocentric, then Narcissi, then Hysteric, then subconsciously drifting toward Atman (out of disgust of myself and the state of affairs in the world) and then finally settling to mostly Hysteric (a state that most of us would like to categorize their Ego, young and old, male and female: it has a gentle connotation of being liberal whether our definition of ego is true or false or the denomination of liberality is true or false).

The point is: if you think that your combination of ego has not changed then you are definitely insane or you have the streak of a trade mark narcissist.

It never hurts to have a heavy dose of one kind of Egomania, as long as you are aware of who you are, proud of your individuality with a tad of compassion and sensibility to people’s sufferings.

Do you want to get a handle on your mind? (November 27, 2008)


Are you disturbed that your mind has this nasty habit of wandering every which way when you need to focus?  I guess it depends on what you are focusing on?  There are moments when time fly by working on something and you know then that you were focused. There are systems (religious, political, ideological, philosophical, and disciplines) with a definite purpose to controlling your mind (brain washing?) and rob you of your rights for individual reflections.  You can learn to control your mind but the trick is to have total faith in the methods or the philosophy or the guru.  The benefit of what you learned is not guaranteed to be what you really wanted in the first place or that your new skills are directed to doing the right thing.  Faith is a very effective knife with two sharp sides and the probability is 50% for satisfying your desires. Critical thinking is also a knife with two sides but they are relatively blunt and the wounds can be reversed and healed; man can learn and develop with critical thinking but faith is definitely lethal when applied against the rational mind.

Since time immemorial, man knew that when he named an object, a feeling, or an emotion then whatever was named started to exist to him and acquired real value.  After naming came the desire to define what was named along with the necessary constraints, limits, and boundaries in order to control the urge for classifying, categorizing, and putting everything that was defined in the proper slot.  Naming created an entity in the mind but it required a definition to attribute connotative values. Thus, a civilization that borrows definitions has forsaken the spirit of its civilization.

It all started with a desire for giving individual values to existing things, living things, the surrounding, and the universe. It ended with man creating the science of law and order.  The ultimate science was establishing mental paradigms that the whole community should believe in regardless of individual reflections; failing to do so result in ostracism as an individual unfit for the unity, safety, and security of the tribe.

Everything in this universe is in waiting. Light is in waiting for man to decide how it should be; it would be wave and it would be particle and it would be a combination of anything that man set up his experiments to discover. Light can have a fixed speed or changing speed. Particles in atoms can rotate around a fixed boundary or be in three places at the same time or they might not. The Universe is in waiting how man wishes it to have started, existed, developed, transformed, and how it will end. The particles, light, and the universe are not affected and don’t care but our mind is.

God is in waiting; He is waiting for man to get his mind straight of what and who is God; He can be the compassionate, the forgiving, the cruel, the neutral, the all knowing, the pre-destined future actions of man, or the free-willed man. God is in waiting to satisfy the wishes of man.  The sets of moral values are in waiting; they are waiting for your conscious to decide what is right and what is wrong.   As long as man is in the conceptual phase then there is no problem: man can clap his hands or rub the magical lamp and every wish would be accorded.

Man survived in the paradigm that the sun revolved around earth and he survived when earth revolved around the sun. The universe didn’t care but the quality of life might have been affected since what exists is the making of man’s mind.  If you feel confused about a theory or a concept or an opinion just recall the fundamentals of the game: man set up the boundaries, the conditions and the constraints.  Decide to change the parameters of the game and your mind will see another universe and live happily in another universe; the universe does not care.  It is your individual right to change parameters in the game; remember though that the concept of individual right is related to personal investment in time, energy, and dedication; individual right is also atrached to responsibility and sacrifices or you have to check in mental hospitals.

Once man crossed the conceptual to its applications in the real existence (like dropping atomic and hydrogen bombs and affecting the equilibrium of the atmosphere), once man desired greed for greed’s sake then man has to pay for crossing the red line.  Man tempers with Earth and the universe for crazy needs not related to survival of the species and the real world goes into smithereens. The game has crossed the limits of the virtual.  Man can still clap his hands for a time; let what we wish for be of values




November 2008

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