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Is it just a flea taunting and nagging at me?

This essay on fleas, flies, mosquitoes, flea-types of connotations, “flea-regret”,…was inspired by the post of under “How opportunities flea

The post says:

“A flea just like the one above, kept bugging me all night. It was somewhere in my cloth, jumping around, biting on occasion.

After a long and painful night of searching and looking, I find it. Sitting there on my leg motionless. Finally! This is my opportunity to end this nightmare. I hesitate for just a moment.

If you know fleas, you’d know that they’re very elusive bugs. They don’t stay put for more than a fraction of a second. And when they jump… You may never spot them again. They’re gone.

In that moment of slight hesitation, the flea jumps.  I’m sure that at some point in your life, you’ve lost an opportunity you’ve long been waiting for. And I can bet that it’s more likely than not, that you’ve lost that opportunity by inaction. Take a minute now to remember that opportunity lost by inaction.

Next time you spot a golden opportunity, be quick. Don’t hesitate. Take immediate action. Don’t let the opportunity flee”.  End of quote, Twitter: @williamchouker

Fleas are tiny creatures, almost invisible. You cannot just take them by two fingers: You have got to use two sharp nails and hear “crush” before you assume that the flea is probably dead.  It is hard work and requires sharp vision, dexterity, patience…all the prerequisites lacking in older people…

You can watch flies when you eat meat outdoors (or indoor). Flies can be cajoled: Just leave them a dish of meat, treat them as guests, a collective guest, a cluster guest…

Mosquitoes are a different story: They much prefer fresh and hot blood, particularly your blood-type. You may take a few seconds to decide on killing the first one:  You quickly learn the first principle of dictators and absolute monarchs “kill with utmost prejudice, immediately”

The number One nemesis among the flea-types is “flea-regret“.  Flea-regret is immortal as long as you live.  It reincarnate newborn, exactly the same spectrum and gamut of regrets that you suffered in your limited life.  A few are more virulent: They are commun to all genders, cultures, civilization, work-types, colors, ethnicity, climatic regions…

It does not matter how dumb you are, you eventually learn the only two truths in life: Death and regrets.

The problem with the kinds of “flea-regret” is that the older you get the faster they procreate: You just keep committing the same kinds of regrets, and you are not the wiser.  You think that you cornered one regret and want to have a sensible conversation with it, but it is a flea and hop! It was just here and was replaced by a nastier “flea-regret”.

The “flea-regret” always sit on the front voluptuous seat and nag you, silently screaming: “And me; and me! I dare you to eliminate me” 

All you wanted is a rational discussion, but regret denies you this luxury, no matter how determined and tenacious you think you are.

Occasionally, I hear someone say: “I feel great. I have no regrets”, and I understand what he means: “I would feel great if I had no regrets”.  Others would say: “I managed to survive against all odds”, and I translate “I managed so far to ward off the onslaught of thousands of regrets. I was not talking of famine or accepting an undignified life…I survived my demons…” 

Another says: “I am under pressure. I feel down. I am kind of depressed…”, and I interpret “Regrets are constantly nagging at me.  Can’t shake-off the “I should have…”

Flea-regret? More accurately, virus-regret!

Note 1: Can you imagine million of soldiers cramped in ditches, and not able to take any decent shower for weeks?  Do you think this soldier has time to think about imminent death when he is constantly itching and fighting off the bites and diseases of all kinds of small creatures? 

More people die of diseases after soldiers return home than during the war, including “collateral civilian damages”.  Over 30 million died in the US and Europe after WWI from the flu epidemic and related diseases. How could any warrior leader claim that he won a victory overseas, when half his population will die of diseases as the warrior return home?

Note 2: William was worried that his concept of opportunity might be taken out of context.  You may read

Symbols and myths: Activators of vigorous split-second behaviors

For example, when a night dream generates an erection, it does not necessarily lead to ejaculation.  It is when the brain  hold your virtual hand and leads it to the virtual sex symbols (tits, vagina…) that you instantly ejaculate.  I presume this is true for women too.  I am curious what are the sex symbols in men for women (tight buttocks,  the few hair on the chest…)

A few symbols and myths lead to good actions, but mostly they are directed to negative behaviors in mankind culture. Why is this so?

Civil wars are programmed by professionals:  They comprehend exactly the kinds of symbols and myths in particular cultures, and disseminate the coded words and sentences that correlate well with specific violent symbols and myths stored in the recesses of our consciousness. 

Kids are easy victims of such dangerous mythical stories, which will be brought up in the forefront in critical situations. Is that why youth are the ones used and abused in most civil wars?

Note: This brief post is meant to generate feedback.  I’ll appreciate it greatly if you forward current examples and stories that match this topic.

The Palestinian refugees will not be left behind

I published many articles on the Palestinian cause and the refugees in Lebanese camps.  The following post I received as link from Andrew Bossone, three weeks ago, and saved it in the pipeline of backlog “drafts”. So far, I have no idea who is the author. Although I am Lebanese, and I approached most of the issues in this post, it is refreshing to slightly edit a post that exhibit outrage.

“Tomorrow is the UN bid to vote on a Palestinian State. The question that first comes to mind is “What kind of Palestinian State?”  The second question is “what of the millions of Palestinian refugees dispersed around the world and those living in camps after 70 years?”

In Lebanon the refugees are scattered in 12 camps across the country. The camps in Lebanon are places inadequate for a healthy life: shanty towns with inhumane conditions. It is the exact same small piece of land that was given to the refugees when they first came to Lebanon back in 1948.   The refugees thought that it would only be a matter of days until they could go back to their land, Palestine. Didn’t the UN officially partitioned the land in 1947?

The Lebanese, not happy with those strangers coming to stay in the country (strangers is a term that was used during the civil war to indicate Palestinians), did not bother to look after their “guests”.  A guest is welcomed for three days: The Lebanese officials thought that the burden would end soon as the UN will take measures for repatriation. But now, after 63 years, the refugees are still here, still suffocating in their tiny camps. The Lebanese did not quite show their famous Lebanese sense of hospitality that is reserved for the khaliji (petrodollars gulf tourists) foreign white people, at all times.

Just to give you a hint, a few months ago, the Lebanese Mufti decided to seize a piece of land, given to the Palestinian refugees by a court order back in the late 1960s and early 1970s, right next to the Shatila camp in order for the refugees to expand their already too small camp. When a delegation from Shatila camp went to the Mufti to protest, he blew up at them, calling them: “rubbish, and we don’t want you as guests anymore”(as reported by Al-Akbar news paper  This racist Lebanese approach towards the Palestinians is not new. Take for example the Tel al-Zaatar massacre  during the Lebanese Civil War on August 12, 1976.  How about the Sabra and Shatila massacre in 1982: the slaughter by Christian Lebanese Phalangists of Palestinian civilians that took place while the camp was surrounded by the Israel Defense Force.

The War of the Camps (within the 1984–89 phase of the Lebanese Civil War) in which Palestinian refugee camps were besieged by the Shi’ite Amal militia. And not least the Naher el-Bared camp: the camp became the centre of the fighting between the Lebanese army and Fatah al-Islam in 2008. It sustained heavy shelling while under siege. Most of the inhabitants fled to the nearby Beddawi Palestinian refugee camp (doubling that camps population) or further south to Tripoli, Beirut and Saida. The camp is still a pile of rubble and only few families were able to return to their houses. The rest of the camp inhabitants are still spread in other camps around the country.

I hope by now you have an idea how the Palestinian refugees live in inhumane conditions: a direct result of the creation of Israel, but further compounded by the Lebanese who profess to help them. This also explains part of why they are determined to return to their land. It’s extremely troubling to think that people were pushed out of their homes, their lands, to make space for other people who never lived there, but claim that their God Yahweh promised them this piece of land(spooky stuff).

In the camps, it’s always the same scene: old and young men alike hanging out on the corners of gloomy passages, in coffee shops, or just outside their buildings. When I talk to them I get the same reaction: “We were never allowed to work for a day or produce a thing, (we’re) losers, hanging out on the streets with all these confused guys”. But this is not the result of some bad economical or financial times, but it’s precisely because they are Palestinian refugees in Lebanon.

By law, Lebanon socio/political structure bans Palestinians from practicing 73 professions, and from owning property.   The Palestinians are stuck in the camp. I remember a few years ago an incident in my family:  A distant female cousin decided to get married. Unfortunately, the man she loved and wanted to marry was Palestinian.  The entire family members turned against her and threatened that they would renounce her if she insisted on marrying any Palestinian man.

Most Lebanese people look at Palestinians in disgust when they know they are Palestinian. And most surprisingly, you will never hear all this racism from the Palestinians:  they tell you they are grateful to the Lebanese people for having them as guests, but they want to return to Palestine, they don’t want to stay here.

Almost all the Palestinians I spoke to lately, especially since the UN bid started getting closer, were not happy about the process since it completely marginalize the millions of refugees. In parallel with this sentiment, many refugees are saying:  “who are these people speaking and signing in our name” referring at the Palestinian Authority (PA) in the West Bank. The corrupt leadership in the PA lost legitimacy from the people a long time ago, especially after the failed Oslo agreement and the unjustified wealth of the PA leadership.

As much as I want to sink in peaceful life illusions, and believe in the promises of a reclaimed State, reality hits me. This “fake Palestinian State” is only another safe haven for the PA to preserve their authority and continue to be Israel and the US’s puppet.

I realize that we have always been just waiting, but now waiting is not a strategy anymore. We have been waiting for 63 years and nothing has happened to benefit the millions of refugees and the segregated, occupied Palestinian people. What exactly are we waiting for? Are we waiting for people like the PA to shove yet another peace deal down our throat in order for them to survive? In order for them to keep the Palestinian people from attempting to topple them as their Arab brothers and sisters are toppling the same old corrupt regimes?

What’s obvious now is that displacing an entire people for a so-called Palestinian “State” to come into existence will never bear sweet fruits, only bitterness.  The outcome is further determination from the displaced Palestinians to take back their land. How does the world, and America, who have been safe guarding Israel by vetoing all kinds of resolutions that satisfy Palestinian hope, expect the Palestinian refugees to carry on living in the inhumane conditions in the camps? How do they expect the hundreds of thousands in Lebanon to deal with Lebanese racism that prevents them from owning property and lays siege around the camps? How do they expect this mistreated people to put up with being banned from practicing more than 70 professions, in a world struggling through a dire economic crisis as a result of the collapse of capitalism?

The vote is tomorrow and, whether it passes or not, the time has come for a change of the status quo. We need to find the courage and overcome the era of the corrupt Arab leaders (dictators and absolute monarchs…) who have always put Israel’s priorities first. No attempt, or perhaps, to be fair, shy attempts, were made by those Arab leaders to address the injustice done in ‘48 when Palestinians were forced out from their land. This voting occasion, that will ignore the millions of refugees, is tantamount for a call to action.

Perhaps this flawed vote will set in motion our Arab brothers and sisters; will galvanize them, in the middle of the wind of change sweeping through our enslaved Arab world, into a 3rd intifada from the surrounding countries of Palestine. We cannot ignore our Palestinian brethren. We, the Arab youth, need to support them and rid ourselves of the chains of the old ruling Arabs who seldom served the real Palestinian cause.

The Palestinians are people, victims of the victims, and not as the Western communities continually portrays them: terrorists, peace haters, extremists, and the countless other alienating descriptions. These are a people who have held steadfast for the longest time in contemporary history and a sham of a vote won’t break their will to return to their homeland.

To all the people out there, brothers and sisters of freedom, this is our time. The old generation had their chances and they got us into these painful realities and circumstances. The result of their actions in the past is precisely why we are revolting today. Old generation, leave us alone, stay in the back seat and let us decide what kind of world we want. We’re done with your dysfunctional old world, bring on the new.” End of quote.

Note: I’ll add the name of the author of the post as I go back to the sources.  I’ll also include several links of my own.




October 2011

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