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I liked my relatives, us

I Like Nous (Written on Nov. 2002)

I need nous (“we” in French), of yesteryears,

Together, an extended family.

Living close to one another

And hopping on a bus for a tour of Lebanon

At a moment notice,

 

I liked nous, children and growing up.

Way before we became professionals,

Married with children

Scattered in the five corners of the world.

 

I am cozy within my new nous;

Of a newer generation:

A very restricted family

Of a new generation who abhors extended families.

 

A new generation who gets busy when called upon to be visited

By an older generation.

Some hide in the attic finishing a much delayed project

A few are locked in the computer room,

Riveted to a stupid monitor.

 

I woke up at 4 am in the morning, read a book for an hour

And I went back to bed.

 

I’m now dreaming.

I read the title of this poem and its first “stanza in my dream.

I remember in my dream, the four of us cousins sitting around a table,

Jihad, Hassib, Nassif and I.

 

It was morning in a well lit room, pretty untidy;

I think we were sitting in the kitchen.

Jihad was reading a newspaper, sipping his cup of coffee and smoking a cigarette.

Hassib was at the other side of the rectangular white table, a pipe helping his readings.

He was restless, acting unperturbed, aloof, and English.

Nassif was cheerful, carefree, not self-centered, an uncharacteristic Nassif.

Nassif is reading in silence, on a white napkin, a piece of poem.

 

A napkin like the one used in Pizza Huts.

Nassif might have guessed the poem was meant to Hassib and written by me.

Nassif handed Hassib the poem who faked to be unconcerned.

 

While I was chatting with Nassif, the “English” surreptitiously read the poem and sets it aside.

Nassif is flipping through reams of computer pages,

Printouts we used ages ago, computer statements inputted on punch cards.

 

Nassif says “This is beautiful” and let me read a few scribbled lines

On one greenish printout.

I said “This is my handwriting. I don’t remember having written these lines”.

 

I was reading the title and the first stanza.

I woke up from my dream.

A sweet dream, sweet nous, of now grown ups.

Note:

Barely meeting altogether, or part of us, once every decades.

Even those living in the same town, we barely meet or visit,

Even before the covid-19 confinement.

During this pandemics, we installed a Whatsapp group to connect every day.

Pretty soon, all overseas cousins disconnected.

 

As I say: the past is a phase to grow up, Not to dwell upon.

You moved forward, keep moving onward.

Just hold your thoughts a few seconds

Once I sneak into your consciousness.

What Einstein equation has to do in a long life?

Of what a long life is constituted from?

I classified this article under “lucubrations” assuming that not many readers will select this category from among the other most interesting 45 categories in my blog.

In my daydream, I managed an association between Einstein equation for defining energy and my definition for life.

The details and clarifications of my equation were the products of my conscious state.

Einstein defined the energy of an object as the product of the “mass” of the object by the square of the speed of light C.

My definition of life is the simple sum of elementary tasks by the speed of light (No square involved).  Obviously, this equation needs plenty of clarifications.

First, the equation needs not be a product/multiplication or an integral function.. and we can consider many other relevant functions after the definition of a task is understood.

Let us consider that any simple activity is constituted of hundreds of infinitesimal tasks, carried successively or in parallel, in order for an activity to be accomplished.

For example, in line production, every activity is subdivided into smaller tasks with computed standard time to finish an activity.  The idea is to train workers to be skilled, within the standard time for each task, and even be paid accordingly to efficiency.

Mind you, acquiring skills and talent in any profession demands lots of repetition, investment of boring time and energy and plenty of musculoskeletal problems in the long run.

Well, every repetition of any task is counted in the equation. You can imagine how much life has been wasted just to be accredited as a professional or a skilled worker!

If our brain and limbs could master a skill by simply “getting it” from the first trial of exposure then, imagine how much life we would have saved for another interesting things.

We would feel that life is stretching so long that it seems ageless.

Repetition of a task include the thousands of times that we copy, paste, reclassify, review, re-dust off our productions and memories.

Can you imagine how much life has been wasted by going back to long past activities?

Night dreaming is an activity with thousands of takes to constitute a movie.

Even the recurring dreams, mostly the unwanted ones, are counted.

The second time we experience a “deja-vu” dream is Not as bad as the first projection: we tend to sit and watch as one of the audience, instead of being part of the movie.  We just wait for this bad film to finish since we feel helpless to stop it or even press “Pause”.

Listen, this is a long story and a long article and I will get to you later for further clarifications and details.

Okay, I am back and I revisited my formula and revised it drastically.

Evidently, very few tasks go as fast as light C.

For example, the movements and reactions of limbs are pretty slow compared to light.

Brain reactions are at best as fast as electrons or 20 thousands km per second.

One of the rare tasks is as fast as C such as in the case when someone says: “I fell in love from the first look.”  This performance has high value rating in life.

Since my math equation doesn’t factor in coefficient of quality or honesty, then there is no difference between “Falling in love from the first sight”, repeated a hundred times a day with same person; or with one hundred different women/person. The equation is neutral.

For example, if you are endowed with a vivid imagination and can recapitulate “the moment” in your mind ad infinitum, then you can summarize the best that life can offer and very efficiently.

My position is that it is the first occurrence counts the most, and recollecting this miraculous/happy “moment” over and over again beats all other kinds of tasks in whatever criteria system you adopt.

Life equation clearly shows that there are many sorts of activities that ruin quality of life.

What is your quality of life when you commute to work?  Repeating so-called automatic reactions in driving a car, a donkey, or a bike for hours a day… is definitely cases that worsen the impact and mock my formula.

For example, how often you regurgitate worries left over from yesterday when you commute?

How often you re-enact the clownish acting drama for the current day difficulties?

How often you ran a red light and ran over a lousy living person?  All these tasks count in the equation and should be eliminated the sooner the better.

Think of algebra and how to cancel out redundant variables so that your life equation looks much simpler and beautiful.

So, how did you decide to commute in order to “save time” in congested metropolis?

One small problem remains to be resolved before we set our mind to change our lifestyle to maximize the life equation and its many constraint equations:  How many tasks and activities can fill a lifetime without being repeated again? 

Are we indulging in repetitions simply because we lack the imagination to figure out plenty of activities?

Are traditions the main hurdle for our lack of imagination because it dangerously reduced licit or legitimate activities to be experienced?

How about getting on this wonderful job of revisiting taxonomies of tasks and activities that could excite you (or not) after retirement?

How about you fine tune the many tasks that constitute professional line fishing?

We dwell on routine tasks to lengthen our life span. The case of the Silent Majority.

We die early on under the enormous stress of inventing and creating new tasks, activities and excitement: feeling restless confronting all the indignities and inequities done to others.


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