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Notes and comments on FB and Twitter. Part 19

Born Free? Learn to retain your freedom and how to go about it?

Comment font-ils pour avilir les ames et leurs esprits de ces nouveaux recruts qui n’ont pas experimentes le meurtre?

They had good intentions: They could no longer vote laws that smacked of socialism. They liked to be re-elected by the elite classes

Large families are mostly the prerogative of the poorer classes. Public schools must have public dwelling attached to them.

If you want to learn to be concise: Try Tweeter

The Duke is Not in doing business: You pay $1,000 to meet with him.

You read enough of what your precious time allowed you. Did You read the title and the summary cover?

Obama was awarded Peace Nobel for his “good intentions to peace”. Wars are worse after 8 years. Time to revert to facts on the ground. Not likely to do same mistake with Donald Trump

On regurgite ce qu’on a retenu de notre enfance, et on y tricotte des histoires malsains, qui n’ont rien a voir avec notre enfance de brute et mal elevée. Est-ce ca devenir adulte? Toutes ces guerres et violence

C’est la parole ecrite ou oralement repetée qui ne doit jamais mourir. Le papier peut deperire si le contenu en vaut la peine de le re-copier, en appliquant un esprit nouveau.

L’immigrant: “J’en ai assez qu’on me dise que je ne suis pas digne, que peut etre je comprendrais plus tard. La plupart des citoyens ne comprennent pas grand chose, et poutant, on ne leur dit pas qu’ils ne sont pas dignes”

We all get upset, angry and we shout. So what? Getting upset and quitting is a generalized flawed sense of pride.

All human-made calamities are consequences of most of us claiming to know more than the others’, of what is right and what is wrong. We transcend our ignorance, our flawed sense of pride, our deep intelligence of our limitations and capabilities in order to fool the others’

A woman crossed the line and planted herself in front of me. I said: was I Not first? She said: So what? I’m in a hurry. I said: My right is more in a hurry to become the rule of the game

It pays to keep transparent accounting and fair mentality in every institution. A little effort can go a long way.

Wars on drugs and terror brought in more of them. Let’s have an open war on jobs and money for a change.

Notes and comments on FB and Twitter. Part 18

More bitter than security is who is let to inherit fear.

Tout ce que voit l’homme, il le prend pour un jouet. On ne devient jamais un sage adulte.

The religious clerics are frank in saying: Give to Caesar what is to Caesar: They always shared power with oligarchies.

Religious clerics are hypocrite when they refuse to give “what is to God to the people”.  They act the banks: dipping in the pockets of governments and people

Blaming others for failing to shoulder responsibilities is common. Resuming your lecture on moral and good behavior is ridiculous

Work on reforming yourself. You’ll repeat mistakes, but Frequent turns Occasional

Are you angry with me? Take all your time to reconcile with yourself

You cry the most on a wish that came true (Truman Capote)

In Cold Blood? It was in the hottest of blood. And Capote tiled his book before hearing what happened in the killings.  He became filthy rich and the book of the decade.

The man looked Perry in the eyes. Perry noticed that the man pitied his upbringing. The eyes of the man was sharing the same trauma he went through in childhood. The hot blood in Perry made a turn and slaughtered this man and then shot the wife and daughter.

Capote might have shared the same house with Perry’s same upbringing.  Perry slipped away from the back door, Truman opted for the front door.

Don’t get carried away with retouche: You apologize once and the trend is a lifetime of apologies. Apology is at best skin-deep: the tenuous emotions in this particular instance are Not solved by an apology.

I believe in the will. Two kinds of will: 1) for survival and 2) an idea for action in gestation.

An idea waiting for the proper conditions and levels of energy and excitement to change the situation.  The same is valid for a people to perform reforms.

“L’Elegance du Herisson”. by Muriel Barbery. An excellent book

“Miniaturiste” by Jessie Burton. Great book on puritanical Netherlands of 17th century

Ce sont les Jihadistes experimentés qui se cache et que les obus deciment.

He meant to pray for specific demands. He realized he was asking for stronger willpower,

Without stronger willpower, how can your specific wishes come to term?

Pity the proud: his internal sufferings are huge. And his ignorance of himself worse than you expected

Les tribus barbares massacraient pour une journés. Comment Daesh a put maintenir ses exactions aussi longtemps?

Notes and comments on FB and Twitter. Part 17

I don’t mind a broken day-dream. Just badly need to recollect any dream I ever had

Defeat is Not in the realm of many: Got to act on your beliefs to earn this opportunity: to dance hysterically.

They stole the 10 commandments, and erased the 11th: You were born Free.

Don’t fret too much: it is common events that changed the direction of your destiny

Even very sad circumstances were prepared as a feast

Love is what happened between us, except literature. Such a large vacuum could have been the best part in our relationship.

Recounting your recollected past events and stands is what precipitate our demise. People don’t care how you changed: They never changed.

That women had no rights to vote or have a bank accounts in the last century didn’t prevent males to think that women deserved more consideration, and vice versa. Currently, women have most of the rights, work and go to universities, but the level of “consideration” has shifted direction

“Consideration” is a perception of the others’ mental state: A certified certification of your learning is one of the Minor factors

You were born Free? Take active positions and respect others’ opinions to retain your freedom

“You are courageous?” Does that mean you are as hard as nails? This is a quality that rare people dare to admit they have.

To all Lebanese living in Lebanon, including the wealthy and leaders, Are you addicted to slow death and proud of it?

Just creating this lame excuse of going abroad to earn another certificate or MBA: If you are Not used to read a lot, you are wasting your parents’ dear money for a short outing

Amine Rihani said it concisely: England was the land for the foreign intellectuals persecuted in their countries. They could publish anything they want totally freely. However, the British intellectual was sanctioned if his writings didn’t match the establishment views on traditions.

More bitter than security is who is let to inherit fear.

Tout ce que voit l’homme, il le prend pour un jouet. On ne devient jamais un sage adulte.

East Aleppo must fall quickly: The Hezbollah fighters want a great reason to withdraw to the eastern Lebanon mountain chain to clean our borders from Daesh and Al Nusra

East Aleppo must be retaken quickly and the Syrian army enters Al Baab: Erdogan plans to dominate northern Syrian territory must be checked.

Any religious sect demanding that the ratio of soldiers and officers be commensurate to its size is to tacitly admit that its moral and spiritual forces are waning. It wants an alternative force to retain its domination. This ratio suggestion is Not adapted to keep the community united.

In 1902, 114 years ago, Amin Rihani replied to the reforms of the new Ottoman Moutassarref to Mount Lebanon, Mozaffar Pasha. Rihani’s set of reforms priority was:

1) Establish public educational institutions. The religious clerics Must be forbidden to run or teach in these public schools.

2) Religious clerics must be denied interventions in any civic decisions or civic laws.

3) Public employees must submit to exams and be selected according to their capabilities.

4) Confiscate religious real estates and pay back the private owners who donated their lands.

Notes and comments on FB and Twitter. Part 16

Our childhood space is a deserted heaven, a temple where our tiny angels and early heroes hover inside. And we love to walk these haunted lands and keep returning to our child model of the world. The worst of existence, the homeless in the heart, is when you cannot claim a single childhood space, didn’t roam enough in a special place

Point d’articulation en prononcant les consonnes: Aerienne (a), Labiale (b), palatale (dental t), alveolaire (interdentale th), cacuminale (j), guttural kh), Linguale (pestdentale r), laterale (dha), uvulaire (kaaf)

It is no longer a matter of Angry While Males in the USA. It is a total lack of confidence in this political system and opaque public institutions. Institutions controlled and run by deep pockets, from health care, education, judicial system and uncontrolled military budget that has turned a deep sink in appropriation and No accountability.

Hillary was the last shot to salvage the US political image compared to Europe in social equitability.

Not sure how Trump is going to convince the people that he means to change the political system in the US and how he is to begin with in the first 100 days. Hopefully he is Not to deal with the immigrants at this stage and tackle the institutions and policies that are the main sources for the US astronomical deficit.

I get bored reading the myths in the “Holy Books“. Would prefer hearing the stories from the sources: Those funny story tellers, with great humor and a wink in their eyes

Hippolyte married Aricie: he passionately loved Phedre. If Phedre admitted that this passion was reciprocated, she would have relaxed and led a happier life.

The US lost an expert and hard working leader and politicians to put her stamp on a reformed rotten political system: She should have told the citizens that she heard their anger at the opaque public institutions and had plans, with her reformist teams, to simplify and render the institutions transparent. The US lost a golden opportunity for any significant reflected reforms.

Someone has to remind Turkey Erdogan that spreading ancient influences by military means is typical of short-term illusions

Erdogan wants to refurbish his ancient illusions, giving wings for the Ottoman empire dreams of still having some influence in the Balkan, the Caucasus, Iraq and Syria

A leader must focus on the 3 essentials: 1. Significantly Reduce violence (physical and in free expressions) 2. Significantly Increase health (physical and mental) 3. Significantly increase the odds for reflective and critical thinking

If you want fair democratic election process then focus on well-being of rural people and simplify and reduce transactions in public institutions 

Many nations forced additional taxes on single males. Reproduction was well below expectations: the youth immigrated and the divorces increased with increased loose behaviour in life-style

I see green. Blue looks green in dim light.

It’s a trend: Those who can read, Don’t like to read. Keep re-editing for those who voted Trump

At the end of the day, people sit in front of TV: Contents must be toward more to knowledge than tacit judgement.

I love you too much, My darling I love you, 2albi elek 3etesh, Il faut que tu l’avoue. wa enn eja 7ada 5ayri, ililo Etech, wa a7ro2 deen abouh, Oumi ta na3mel Match, al3aab 5aramiyya

What if it is the country that killed him? One of them collateral martyrs, who was convinced that Being Non political guaranteed safety?

It is easy to live in a community without bridges to the other side. Once a bridge links communities, it is hard to reconcile differences in cultures

There was a time when people wanted to emulate any demi-God. Any of them worthy gods left?

Notes and comments on FB and Twitter.

We are all cowards, in more than one way, and we know it. Please, desist from reminding us of that.

Né intelligent and paria, Riabinine n’a cure des prejudices des nobles: il aime manipuler et detrousser poliment ces seigneurs et leur system imbecile.

Les efforts de la volonté (decision et intention): if faut beaucoup de pratiques pour que la routine reduit effectivement et suffisamment ces efforts

Je n’aurais jamais credité les pauvres de grandeur d’ame pour les plus aisés sous pretexte des injustices de la vie. Poor people mostly hate the other poors: They sense that they match their deficiencies et remind them of their lamentable conditions.

The minor poetes generated the greater ones. Invest in the research of the minor poetes as a catalyst for a fresh new wave of great poetes.

Ce farouche ennemi qu’ offensait le respect, qu’importunait la plainte… est dompté et apprivoisé par son amour d’Aricie

Cet orgueil, nourri dans les forets, il en a la rudesse. Endurci par de sauvages lois, Hippolyte entend parler d’amour pour la premiere fois.

Who is the poete of all time? Again, in which language? I can read in the original French, English and Arabic. I may say: Racine in French, Shakespeare in English, Al Motanabi in Arabic. I would have picked Abu Nawwass if he invested any time in editing and publishing his abundant and versatile poems.

The spread of knowledge and sciences didn’t make a dent on the ratio of the suckered people every day. That is why proactive laws must be enacted to keep the money in the pocket of the bamboozled by institutions and associations.

The tribe that owned the monopoly over the idol of the greatest Abstract God Allah was constantly broke. The well-off tribes owned the practical demi-God idols.

Nothing has changed: It is the Saints who are generating the wealth of the churches.

Human kind will be better off if he adored the good people after their death, instead of an abstract God whose deeds are malignant to the living.

I listened to the speech of Thomas Moore last night in Wisconsin. He was demanding Not to use the voting booth as an “anger management” right. You will feel good for a day, and be hurt for 4 years.

Vivons-nous dans l’angoisse du manqué? Apres une fete, un bouillant nous rend heureux de l’instant present: On a moins mais on en profit plus.

On ne gout un plaisir que parce qu’ on le sait ephemere et unique. Il ne suit pas que ce qui est ephemere doit generer du plaisir: Il faut de la pratique et perseverance pour decouvrir comment render l’ ephemere essential a une vie satisfaisante.

Persevere at you most cherished hobby: keep working the details for perfection to flow.

Modern Lebanon and Syria: No sciences or a valid national anthem. Traditions of the land that refused any King, a people without civic rights, a soul Not confined within a Temple. A land surviving on ancient spirit, myths with roots as deep and sprawling as antiquity. The original chaos left intact, surrounded by symbols and illusional hopes. A hotbed for civilizations that spread and re-arranged this peaceful chaos into national codes and organizations

Through my diaries, I got convinced that falling in love must be a story: You don’t accede to passionate love until you tasted the burning of hell (May Mennassa)

Notes and comments on FB and Twitter. Part 15

We are all cowards, in more than one way, and we know it. Please, desist from reminding us of that.

Né intelligent and paria, Riabinine n’a cure des prejudices des nobles: il aime manipuler et detrousser poliment ces seigneurs et leur system imbecile.

Les efforts de la volonté (decision et intention): if faut beaucoup de pratiques pour que la routine réduit effectivement et suffisamment ces efforts

Je n’aurais jamais credité les pauvres de grandeur d’ame pour les plus aisés sous pretexte des injustices de la vie.

Poor people mostly hate the other poors: They sense that they match their deficiencies et remind them of their lamentable conditions.

The minor poetes generated the greater ones. Invest in the research of the minor poetes as a catalyst for a fresh new wave of great poetes.

Ce farouche ennemi qu’ offensait le respect, qu’importunait la plainte… est dompté et apprivoisé par son amour d’Aricie

Cet orgueil, nourri dans les forets, il en a la rudesse. Endurci par de sauvages lois, Hippolyte entend parler d’amour pour la premiere fois.

Who is the poete of all time? Again, in which language? I can read in the original French, English and Arabic. I may say: Racine in French, Shakespeare in English, Al Motanabi in Arabic. I would have picked Abu Nawwass if he invested any time in editing and publishing his abundant and versatile poems.

The spread of knowledge and sciences didn’t make a dent on the ratio of the suckered people every day. That is why pro-active laws must be enacted to keep the money in the pocket of the bamboozled by institutions and associations.

The tribe that owned the monopoly over the idol of the greatest Abstract God Allah was constantly broke. The well-off tribes owned the practical demi-God idols.

Nothing has changed: It is the Saints who are generating the wealth of the churches and other religions.

Human kind will be better off if he adored the good people after their death, instead of an abstract God whose deeds are malignant to the living.

I listened to the speech of Thomas Moore last night in Wisconsin. He was demanding Not to use the voting booth as an “anger management” right. You will feel good for a day, and be hurt for 4 years. (The problem is that Hillary has already nasty plans for the Middle-East)

Vivons-nous dans l’angoisse du manqué? Apres une féte, un bouillant nous rend heureux de l’instant present: On a moins, mais on en profit plus.

On ne gout un plaisir que parce qu’ on le sait éphemere et unique. Il ne suit pas que ce qui est ephemere doit generer du plaisir: Il faut de la pratique et perseverance pour découvrir comment rendre l’ ephemere essential a une vie satisfaisante.

Persevere at you most cherished hobby: keep working the details for perfection to flow.

Modern Lebanon and Syria: No sciences or a valid national anthem. Traditions of the land that refused any King, a people without civic rights, a soul Not confined within a Temple. A land surviving on ancient spirit, myths with roots as deep and sprawling as antiquity. The original chaos left intact, surrounded by symbols and illusional hopes. A hotbed for civilizations that spread and re-arranged this peaceful chaos into national codes and organizations, elsewhere

Through my diaries, I got convinced that falling in love must be a story: You don’t accede to passionate love until you tasted the burning of hell (May Mennassa)

My first retirement check: the story of this interminable process.

Tuesday, January 3, 2017. A good day for me.

My first monthly retirement check is barely $900, but worth years of frustration and determination Not to be intimidated by rumors and be bilked from this entitlement.

It is raining cats and dogs and I wore my Macintosh (overcoat) and carried an umbrella. Half an hour later, it is sunny and I look ridiculous.

I got a ride with my niece working in Hamra and stepped down in Dawra to take a bus to Jisr Al Cola, at a walking distance to the headquarter of the Lebanese Order of Engineers.

For almost 10 months after I applied for retirement, and after doggedly proceeded with the process that was basically meant to dissuade me and delay the date of the first payment, Nabil Batal gave me a new matriculation number for retired engineer. I will have to check with the Order twice a year, just for them to verify that I am still alive and kicking.

The new number suggests that half the engineers entitled for retirement didn’t apply. Either they died prematurely, or withdrew from this Order, or they figured out that the retirement check is Not worth all that trouble and having to pay in cash what the order will demand them to pay before proceeding with the process.

I was to deal only with Bank Med (Mediterranean), otherwise, I will have to wait 6 months for each payment. Actually, this bank does Not open a checking account for the retirees. They give you a debit card to retrieve whatever cash you need at the end of each month. You can also use this card for purchases up to $1,000 each month.

Interesting question: Why do I have to open a checking account with another bank and withdraw money to deposit it in that account?

Finally, I saw the glimmer of a light at the end of this tunnel. I used to say after each phase in the process: Don’t raise your hope prematurely “ma t2oul foul abel ma yesour bil makyoul“. Here are the stages I went through:

Stage One:  I officially submitted my application for retirement with the necessary documents. Many engineers tried to dissuade me to the contrary on assumptions based on rumors. I submitted a fresh family register (wathicat 3aa2elat)  and a CV for the last 15 years.

Basically, the CV is to mentions the companies and jobs I had during that period for the Order to estimate my total income. In the final analysis, what interest the Order is an official document from your last job that you are no longer working.

Actually, the Order assumes that every engineer is a liar and never claims his exact income. Thus, the Order adds LL 500,000 for every year in the last 15 years to be paid before reviewing the retirement application (bara2et zemmeh).

Consequently, whether you are one of the rare law abiding engineer or you have not worked for the last 15 years, you have got to pay this minimum sum, in addition to whatever investigation proved you owe them. (That’s what the lead accountant told me)

Since I arrived in Lebanon in 2000, the only job I got was a part-time instructor at a university. It was the only institution that had a department of Industrial Engineer and they had to offer courses in Human Factors in Engineering.

I wrote extensively on this teaching experience and had the opportunity to post about 50 articles in the category of Human Factors.

Every year, at due time to pay my contribution and for my health insurance, employees at the Order would never believe that what I declared was my yearly income, far below average, but I had to pay the minimum expected from an engineer.

After a younger engineer (friend with the staff professors) was hired as a full-time teacher, I had to borrow money for 2 consecutive years to pay my yearly dues. And then I stopped paying for 6 years, and lived without any health coverage.

Yet, when I resumed paying my dues, the Order insisted to pay the usual amount, in addition to penalties. And in cash.

Stage 2: Mr. Batal is the appointment person to handle retirement applications at headquarter. He told me that I should Not expect a phone call before at least 6 months. Why? They don’t investigate: they don’t have the resources to have an investigative department (that’s what they told me). So why this delay? Most probably to break any determination to proceed with the application and to delay payments, the longer the better.

Stage 3: After a long wait, finally a secretary called me up and said that I will have to come up with $2,250 in cash before the process resumes.

The accountant Khoury estimated that amount must be coughed up and that I have no other recourse. I met with him and he was plain: the longer you delay this payment, the longer the first payment will be delayed and you will be losing many months in retirement checks.

The Order executive council meet twice a month and decides on the retirement date. Kind of if you missed their meeting, you miss more retirement checks.

Stage 4. My job was now how to borrow that enormous sum before the executive meet in order Not to lose more checks. I knocked at many doors of well-to-do relatives at no avail. One relative agreed to lend me $1,500. Luckily, mother had managed to save the remaining amount.

Stage 5. I paid my highway robbery “dept” in cash and had to go through a dozen employees for them to appose their signatures for reviewing the requirements and do copies. I had to wait for a few of them to arrive to work or come back from appointments.

Stage 6. The executive council failed to meet for over 2 months to add my name to the roster (jadwal) of retired engineers.

Stage 7. I had to wait another month for Batal to ask me to come to his office to give me instructions on how to receive my first retirement check

Stage 8. I walked to BankMed, half a mile away, and had to ask directions a couple of times and backtrack. It started raining. After I finished with the paperwork at the bank, and got my debit card, I withdrew all the money. I had to stop a taxi to take me to Jisr al Coka, a mile away.

That’s my story for the moment.

Now I will have to tell it to engineers who are entitled for retirement and are plagued with untenable rumors.


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