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“Are you sure, comrade Aliide”? Book Review
Posted by: adonis49 on: February 15, 2013
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“Are you sure, comrade Aliide”?
The interrogator asks Aliide:” Where is Hans”? (the husband of her older sister Engel and an Estonian nationalist)
Aliide: “Hans is dead. Killed by roaming gangs in the forest…”
“Are you sure, comrade Aliide?”
“Hans is dead”
The tchekist (Soviet security agent) said: “I have done all that is possible to help you. I can do nothing now”
Those people in long chromed leather boots and leather black coats attached the hands of Aliide behind her back, and dropped a jute bag over her head.
She could see nothing. Water dripped on the floor of the cave beneath the municipality. The odor of the humid cave spilled out the door.
Aliide shirt was torn apart and her chest bared. She was transformed into a mouse in a corner, a fly on a lamp, a rusty thumbtacks on the wall..
Blood under the skin of her chest, the hematoma of her tits were inflated. As the skin of the naked woman touched the floor, she didn’t move. This body with a bag over her head was now a stranger, she never existed, she was a root going deeper under the soil.
Aliide was spit on the leg of the table, by a hole for termites. She was a mole digging away. The courtyard smelt of rain and wind, the humid dirt breathed. The head of Aliide was dipped in a trash bucket.
She was being sniffed by dogs, urinated at… And somewhere you could smell brandy, guess the chromed boots… Somewhere people were mixing the languages of Estonia and Russia, rotten tongued whistling…
The buckle of a belt jingling, a door opening, a glass resounding, a chair scratching the floor…
Aliide was a fly, trying to escape in her mind, but this woman is emitting a moan, a death rattle in a spasm. The bag smelt of vomit, smelt of urine…
The door banged: “It stinks. Get her out”
Aliide is in a ditch. Shortly the sun will be up: She has to drag her sore body home, before anybody see her and recognizes her. She had no socks on.
Her older sister Engel will never forgive her for bearing her legs, no decent woman should show her naked legs…
As Aliide is readying to take a hot bath, she ordered Engel to burn all her clothes.
“They will be back. We have got to be leaving…”
And they were back the next morning: They behaved as the masters of this home, and the 3 women were taken back to the municipality. Aliide was ordered to handle the torture of her 7 year-old niece Linda.
Aliide was to grab the hot lamp dangling in the middle of the table, approach it and burn the pussy of Linda…
Aliide did it. The three women didn’t talk.
Aliide had arranged to hide Hans in a tiny storage room: She would do anything to keep Hans close by, all for herself, not for her sister Engel (the couple was in deep love) or Hans’s daughter Linda.
Aliide waited all her life to hear someone tell her “It was not your fault if you were tortured…”
Aliide waited all her life for someone to do anything to take off a tiny weight off her chest and who would promise her: “Not again. Never again”
But Aliide knew that no one would come to her rescue: She could never confide to anyone of what happened to her in the cave in the municipality.
Aliide husband was a staunch dedicated communist among the provincial high echelons, and he cared for Aliide and his daughter Trava.
Aliide never cared for Martin but marriage secured a life of a normal woman and a few amenities. Aliide had to play the good wife to remain in her house and be near Hans: Who but her could care for Hans as she managed to purge and send Ingel and Linda to Siberia?
And Martin died, and Estonia is back an independent State, and the former “communists” are harassed.
Liide is destroying and burning all traces of the communist period.
And she discovers in a secret drawer of Martin tiny objects, like the brooch of her sister Ingel. Did martin participate in the torture and raping of Ingel or Linda? Aliide married Martin because she was pretty sure that she never heard his voice as she was herself tortured…
Aliide also found the gold watch of a neighbor who was absolved of treason, but rumors spread that he agreed to have his girl raped for an entire night: The girl eventually committed suicide, and nobody knew the reason…
Aliide spent her life avoiding those who were tortured like her: She could recognize these women from their eyes and gaits, and she kept a distance from them, lest Aliide’s secret is compromised.
“Are you sure, comrade Aliide”? was the sentence that harassed her daily life, at every occasion she noticed a potential torturer. (Read note 3 for the entire story)
Note 1: The fiction character Hans Pekk was an Estonian nationalist who resisted the Russians when they occupied Estonia in 1939. He joined Nazi Germany army in 1941 when they entered Estonia on their way to invade Russia. He joined the Finish army as Russia reoccupied Estonia in 1944 and infiltrated to be part of the resistance with the “Brothers of the Forest”
Note 2: An extract from the book “Purge” by Sofi Oksanen
Note 3: The previous review of the Purge https://adonis49.wordpress.com/2013/02/10/i-wont-go-to-tallinn-ingel-would-have-added-more-salt-to-the-sauce-book-review/
“I won’t go to Tallinn. Ingel would have added more salt to the sauce…” Book Review
Posted by: adonis49 on: February 10, 2013
“I won’t go to Tallinn. Ingel would have added more salt to the sauce…”
That’s what Aliide read in the last diary of Hans , the husband of her elder sister Ingel.
“There are forests and cultivated spaces in the Capital Tallinn (Estonia). There are moments I feel the urge to direct my Walther at Liide. My head is completely clear after so many years of depression…”
Hans had promised Aliide to use the passport under a faked name in order to get established in Tallinn, where no one recognizes people.
Aliide planned it all to the minute details, and she was promising herself to be walking together freely in Tallinn, Hans all for herself, finally.
Aliide had even started to coat her hands with goose fat to soften her skin, and chew on charcoal to whiten her teeth… She was sewing a modern dress…
And Hans decided instead to run away to the forest to join the resistance “Brothers of the Forest“. And he was ambushed, injured and returned home and fainted.
Aliide realized that she was not to go for walks at the Door of Viru, arm in arm with Hans… Hans has promised her. Aliide cried her eyes out: All that energy and effort invested to keep Hans close by…All thesesleepless nights, atrophied life due to the constant fear that Hans will be discovered and executed.
All the inventive and pragmatic schemes she handled to keep the investigators at bay, marrying a high-level communist to facilitate her status as a normal married person, encouraging her husband martin to dispatch her sister Ingel and daughter Linda to Siberia so that she may return to her home and take care personally of Hans, hidden in the storage room and other places in the house…
Cooking for Hans, imitating Ingel’s handwriting and sending Hans faked cheerful letters from Siberia… Ingel and Linda in good health, having some good times, and recollecting the happy memories…
Bringing dailies for Hans to read, baking fresh bread for Hans, securing the necessary brandy, the medicines needed, washing Hans soiled clothes… Every day for years… Hansd having nobody else to care for him and getting him out of the confinement if not for Aliide. All that energy and effort for naught…
Hans never looked at Aliide as someone capable of maintaining a family and a house: Ingel was all on his mind.
And Aliide realized that she barely looked straight at Hans’ eyes, and it was reciprocal.
And yet, she was the one who noticed first Hans and fell in love at first sight when she was 12 and Ingel 17.
It was Ingel whom Hans loved, married, begot Linda and never could forget Ingel… Aliide was pretty much invisible to Hans.
And Ingel was the perfect woman, the perfect cook, who smelt fresh, happy, and energetic no matter what.
Ingel was the perfect match, and Aliide almost useless in the kitchen, in the field, in taking care of the cows…
Aliide had to learn everything from Ingel to run a house and prepare for the long winter season. But Ingel lacked this pragmatic mind to resolve dangerous situations…
Ingel had to rely on Aliide to come up with solutions and keep the family safe and sound.
And Aliide suffered tortures from the security services and never talked that Hans is still alive…
Hans had lost consciousness and Aliide trampled his shoulders but he didn’t move. She poured sleeping medicines in Hans’s mouth.
Aliide tied Hans hands and feet. She covered Hans and kissed him on the mouth. She carried him back to the hiding place in the storage area.
She closed the door and glued the door, and she blocked the aeration holes. Returned the cupboard to its place and cleaned the kitchen of blood and...
Thirty years later, Aliide was to meet Zara, the granddaughter of Hans and Ingel, and saved her from the mafia gangsters who used her as a sex slave in Germany…
And Aliide would lay down next to the skeletal of Hans and have the house burned down by the chauvinist adolescents in the town…
Note 1: From “Purge” by Sofi Oksanen, translated in French
Note 2: Read part 1. https://adonis49.wordpress.com/2013/02/09/purge-in-estonia-modern-history/
Bad Arab
Posted by: adonis49 on: July 10, 2009
Bad Arabs
1. We are a compassionate people. We adopt babies from all over the World.
From Latvia, Estonia, Romania, even from Africa and Asia.
Arab babies are off limit; off medias.
There is no Arab baby. No Arab youth. Just Arabs. Bad. Arabs.
2. The Jewish American rapist is socially dysfunctional. The genuine rapist is Arab.
The Jewish American Baruch, of the Hebron massacre, is a madman.
A nerve snapped. Arabs nerves can’t snap: made of stainless steel, tightly wired,
For mischief.
The Maryland Jewish murderer, chopped a human head. He is a juvenile delinquent.
A psychotic. Arabs are born, adult criminals.
3. The peace makers with Israel are Egyptians, Jordanians, or Moroccans.
Mostly their leaders. That is beside this point.
The enemies of Israel are Arabs. Mostly their leaders.
We have high hope in their people.
The criminals of the Oklahoma City bombing
Should have been Arabs. Exceptions do occur. Human nature you know.
4. Sirhan Sirhan assassinated Robert Kennedy. He is no Palestinian.
No motives. Just bad Arabs attitude.
If push comes to shove, if a motive is needed,
Why Sirhan is a hatemonger of the defenders of Civil Rights.
5. The most famous heart surgeon, Michael Debaky
The poet of “The Prophet” and much more, Gebran Khalil Gebran
The founder of St. Jude hospital, for children with cancer, Danny Thomas
Said that they are Arab Lebanese. The media beg to differ:
They are all, at best, of Lebanese descendents.
The bombers of the World Trade Tower are Arabs.
The perpetrators of the Achilles Loro are Arabs.
6. Literature, Nobel prize winner, Nagib Mahfouz,
Says he is Arab. Ask him.
The media insist that he is just Egyptian.
Those who shoot down commercial airplanes are Arabs.
Israel strikes Arab refugee camps.
Israel retaliates for Arab suicide bombings.
Israel lodges a cannon shell, inadvertently, on a UN compound.
About three hundred Arabs died. Give or take fifty Arabs.
Apology to the UN.
7. Arabs were massacred in the camps of Sabra and Shatila.
Arabs killing Arabs. Israel could care less.
How dare you blame Israel Defense Force!
They happened to be there.
8. There are no Arab babies. There are no Arab youths.
Just Arabs. Bad. Arabs.
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