Adonis Diaries

Keeps Me Sane (1998)

      Reading keeps me sane. The time for enjoying a great book

Is still there, and always will be.

I always expect jewels on human relationship.

I like surprises which reveal feelings that I would never divulge

Either to a shrink or to anyone at my deathbed.

 

Feelings that reveal emotions I thought were my exclusive domain.

Puerile ideas that I would be ashamed to express,

Dangerous tendencies that I like to ignore.

 

The more I read, the more I am convinced that I am sane,

That everyone is sane given time to read as much,

That mankind shares every thought and emotion I can come up with.

 

Accepting that humbling knowledge needs time,

Time to reach a stage of vulnerability where life seems too complex,

For diminishing energy and forever growing dreams.

 

Run baby run, though you are sane and think otherwise.

Sink baby sink, though you are not much different than your neighbor.

 

Once I realized that all kinds of feelings are common to all,

What little work remained is a trifle to many.

It is a job you did all your life with no effort:

Acting normal.

 

Just act normal to all who cannot stand reading.

Why wait to be reincarnated, now and then,

Over thousands of years, as a new kind of animal?

Why not have a thousand human souls in a lifetime?

 

Every character in a story is You

Under different time, country, climate, class, birthrights, condition,

In different situations, social, political, financial and gender.

You span the whole gamut of human emotions

You are the good, the bad, the evil, the saint.

You are the rich, the poor, the nobleman, the peasant.

You are the genius, the idiot, the hardworking, and the fainéant.

 

Pick a well described character, good or evil.

Personify it and the story changes as you change,

Your heart and mind reedit the story as you change character

Because it could have been you; it is you indeed.

 

You can be everybody, everywhere and it is still a fact,

You are a changed person, many peoples in one.